Just once my boyfriend would suprise me with a gift or a love note. getting something romantic is like pulling teeth. His excuse for never taking me to his parties is that his friends hate me and im not invited. but a real man should stand up for me and not let me put up with this. Ive seen messages he has sent to other women saying he is only using me for my money and it hurts. I hate how how i never go out and have fun when hes not here, I dont do anything to him and he is always angry, always lying and always asking some other girl to meet him. I cant stop loving him because he is the only man that truly knows me and he is a good guy. But sometimes i wonder why he wont call when hes gone for four days or how me crying doesnt affect him at all. I just want him to wake up and realize how much ive cared for him and have tried to pick up all his pieces and put them back together. He is better than this. He has so much potential. I love him so much :(

he leaves june 13, this is possibly the worst thing ill have to do. He is my best friend and my boyfriend, a hard thing to come by with all the jealousy and hatred in the world. I hope he succeds in his career path and comes home to me one day. I love you Michael.